"8/2/06-Wednesday
It's a day or two earlier than I am supposed to be able to take a home pregnancy test-but I was too excited to wait for the weekend. Took a First Response test this morning and, for the first time, I actually saw that second pink line I've prayed so hard for so many times. It's faint but it's definitely there! I don't know how I feel-I keep going back in the bathroom and looking at it over and over again. I can't believe it's real."
Four home tests and a doctor's visit later and it was definitely real and I was on my way down one of the most thrilling and frightening roads a woman can travel--motherhood.
I realized today that I did not have any of those naked bottom pictures of Robby that most moms seem to have of their kids. At first I wondered why, but once I thought about it for a moment I realized it was because of his hemangioma. Robby was born with a quarter sized hemangioma on his left hip. In the beginning I absolutely hated that bump. I spent a lot of time questioning why God would do this to my otherwise perfect and beautiful baby boy. Through our work with a wonderful pediatric dermatologist I've learned to make peace with this part of my son's anatomy. My own research revealed photos of babies with hemangiomas that were much larger than Robby's and located in more traumatic places like the face, internal organs, or diaper area. In an attempt to firm up Robby's diagnosis we went through blood tests and ultrasound pictures. Wondering what they could possibly be looking for, I did more research and learned more than I ever cared to know about fibrosarcoma. In the time it took to get all of the test results, I learned to be grateful that it was "only" a hemangioma.
Today I decided to go ahead and take those naked baby bottom photos, and I even took some close-ups of the hemangioma itself to record its existence for posterity. Someday it will be gone and I will be trying to explain it to my son. Now I've got the photos to help me do it.
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